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Name: Cyn
Country: United Kingdom
Birthday: 9/12/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: listening to music, bumming
Expertise: hmm....
Occupation: product specialist
Industry: pharmaceutical
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Member Since:
5/16/2002
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| 24-31st !!! looking forward to meeting ALLL my dahliiinggss!!! .. i cant wait!!!!
i misss u all.
shop shop till i drop .. then eat until i explode ! wohooo...
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| It is confirmeed !!! ... I will be going to HK!!! this time it is for real. I have booked my ticket and now waiting for my passport to get done . This is my new beginning definitely ! recently i have been feeling very weird . Feel so distant with all my friends here. seems like they are in their own little world and sometimes my opinion dosent matter. oh well , i know that I have many other friends who love me for who i am. I guess thats what keeps me going , but definitely i m put off by Brunei right now. Had a nice long chat with my cousin last night and i hope to see her this weekend. I know i definitely need to expand my social circle. oh well ,i just need to be more optimistic. This trip to HK has really got me hyped. I have already more or less planned what to do . definitely shop till i drop !!! ( told my mom to inc my limit on credit card !AHAHA) and eat eat eat eat eatt!!!! i dont care if i gain weight . i really hope to see all my beloved friends when i get to hk , if any of u are reading this ! contact me ! i will be staying with ar belle ! so anyhoo ... no big updates in my life. hope next yr , i will travel as much as i have this yr ! really excited ! Cyn | | |
| i think i have finally got to a point where i m settled in life but is this a good thing or a bad thing?.... went lunch with boss today then going to have dinner with several doctors. i feel so young amongst them. i dont even speak at the same wavelength. I wanted to go to hongkong for holidays this saturday but the price is overwhelming. i have decided to leave it to the end of year where i would have better planning. This time i will make it . by hook or by crook. I really wanna go hk and have a good holiday. wanna catch up with friends and really eat lotsa foood!!.. i m deprieved from good food .. funnily i even miss henry's cooking. oh i never cook anymore, could be a good or bad thing( depends on my mood when i cook) hmmm... what else has happened in my life, lets seee. well i have decided on a path which i will put into action probably next month when things settle . I do not know why i stay in this decision even though i have been unhappy for such a long time. nothing can erase the past nor change it. recently i have mixed feelings. I dont actually like my job. yes yes , it is a very easy job to do and i have sooooo much freee time! n money is good. however i dont get job satisfaction . i dont get to use my brains. I do not know why i slaved for a degree for. seems so useless. i feel uselesss. but i really cant have it all lar . okaiz.. i better sign out now. CYn | | |
| my birthday is coming ! but its not making me happy. i m old so so old. ... i m feeling very very down these days. i wish i had more friends and more things to do. I dont like being dependant on people but i m really really bored. The more i stay here and see superficial friends , the more i wish i was out of this godamn country. After going for interview for my permanent residednce and getting the bad news tat its not hopeful, i really wonder why... its so difficult to be me.
anywayz .. sighz hope my mood lifts up soon .i m really drowning now.
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| ithas been such a long time since i have updated my xanga site. I have regularly been reading everyone's site... thanks to their daily digest. Anwyayz , I can see that this time is the crossroad for everyone;s life. i was there a year ago.. aimless , not knowing what will happen next. Be rested all my dear friends, life will take its course and u all will be fine. I was so worried for almost 5 months, what will become of me. but now, i m settled and this job is not too bad. I still ask the question occasionally, what if?... but when will we ever stop asking ourselves these questions.
Right now my job is pretty relaxed except the quarterly meetings where i have to go to KL and be reviewed. tests and role plays ... so tough. though it is good shopping break , but i wish it was a break rather than a meeting. I have a big conference coming up which i am organizing. its abit daunting because i will be running it bymyself. scarryy thought. but i know i have to grow up sometime. Really hoping to go to thailand soon ... but for the time being , i would still have to put it on hold. cant wait to meet ah belle in spore though . its been a long long long time since i have seen my friends from UK and i miss them terribly. wish i can just talk to them and be a student again. Sometimes I have a feeling of unfairness that I just got ripped out of happiness. I was really happy in birmingham and the life i was leading there as a student. it all had to end and it ended last year. i have learnt so much and gained so so much from it. Miss bull ring .. even shopping alone sounds so so good now. Just wish i could just enter a GAP and go crazy , topshop , selfridges , I MISSED krispy kreme and erghh ... never got to see that at the city center ready in time. I miss the food at mal'maison , bar estilo , even peach garden and amy che there.
okaizz ... too much reminiscing... getting alittle tery eyed now.. :P
Cyn
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